Open blinds, but I can't find my way around窗帘拉开 但我无法寻得方向
I owe it to myself, I got a lot to figure out是我自身的过错 我还有很多需要弄清
Got a knot in my belly, are you sure it's supposed to help me?肚子如麻绳般绞痛 你确定 这会对我有帮助吗
It's been long enough to feel it, can you feel it?感受痛苦的时间已足够长 你有感觉到吗
Aren't I supposed to feel it now?我如今不是应该感知到它吗
Tell me what you're thinking告诉我 你在想什么
I don't wanna have to shout我不愿迫不得已地呐喊
Feel the heavy breathing, on my chest and in my mouth感觉沉重的呼吸 在我的胸口起伏 嘴中流通
Got two hands around my heart就像有两只手握住我的心脏
I don't wanna see myself burning bridges when I'm down(Hold up, watch my shit)等等 看好我的玩意儿我不想看到自己 在消沉时烧毁后路
I'm falling我正沉沦
Wondering how to spend my million hours while you're calling想着 该如何度过 我余下的百万小时
Throwback to my bedroom with no colors你令我回忆起 我曾黯然无光的卧室
My apartment; got no AC in my room我的公寓 我的房间 也并未配备空调
Shoutout Verlaine and Rimbaud向Verlaine和Rimbaud致敬
You know what he's gonna do你知道 他会如何处理
Aren't I supposed to feel it now?我如今不是应该感知到它吗
Tell me what you're thinking告诉我 你在想什么
I don't wanna have to shout我不愿迫不得已地呐喊
Feel the heavy breathing, on my chest and in my mouth感觉沉重的呼吸 在我的胸口起伏 嘴中流通
Got two hands around my heart就像有两只手握住我的心脏
I don't wanna see myself burning bridges when I'm down(Hold up, watch my shit)等等 看好我的玩意儿我不想看到自己 在消沉时烧毁后路
I'm falling through the corridors我正下坠 穿过走廊
Used to the broken flooring习惯了破旧的地板
"Sorry", I'm not sorry for what?“抱歉” 我为何不抱歉呢
I excuse myself from pouring我宽恕自己 是我作茧自缚
Acid, on my chest, might miss hardly伤口撒盐 可能差点就会错过
Can't even tell the story甚至无法讲述这个故事
Lose me at my best在我最好的年华 失去自己
My next project might be the one that shoots me(Up, up, up, up)我的下个项目 可能会正中我的下怀
Then the stars in the sky light my bedroom然后 天空中的星星 点亮了我的卧室
Flashing words on the walls and my head too点亮了墙上闪烁的文字 还有我的脑海
I'm alive but I can't live without you我心脏正一如既往地跳动 但没了你的世界 我难以存活
Can't live without you没有你的世界 难以存活
And the thoughts in my head run in circles我脑海中的思绪在打转
And the sheets on my bed turn to purple床单变成了紫色
I'm alone but I know that I won't do nothing to hold you back 我独自一人 但我知道 我不会阻碍你任何
Nothing to hold you back 不会做任何 阻碍你的事
I just wanna go to sleep, but I don't know how to keep我只想去睡觉 但我不知该如何让我
Separated from my thoughts, it's become a part of me与自身思绪分离 即便它已成为我的一部分
If I'm alive at 24, my life is a dichotomy要是我二十四岁时仍存活于世 我的生活会一分为二
I don't know what I wanna be, nobody better bother me我不知道 自己想成为什么 最好没人来打扰我
I'm sleep deprived and suicidal我睡眠不足 渴望长久安眠
Thinking 'bout a lot of things总会思考太多
I know it's in my mind我知道 这不过是我脑中的风起云涌
But sometimes it's just kinda hard to see但有时 真的很难看清
Nobody really gives a fuck it's a complete autogamy没人真的在乎 这完全是自我消耗
I realize I don't wanna be我意识到 我不想成为——
I really didn't wanna be我真的不想这样——